4 more days…

 

just when u need that someone special to be there for support

 

emptiness

 

 

 

wet rainy Monday night

 

 

nitez

 

 

 

 

somehow

 

yet another christmas/new year mood is missing

 

being a christian, i know that’s not right to feel

 

 

but the feeling just isn’t there anymore

how about the faith?

 

 

i really dunno

 

the warmth is gone

 

 

 

3rd week of Dec

for the better….i hope

 

 

time flies

 

 

rainy Sundays

 

 

 

 

brunches

 

lazing in bed

 

weekend movies

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Monday once again….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the vodka is kicking in

 

keep tossing n turning in bed…cant zzz!

sigh

 

 

two straight nights in a row

vodka

 

i thought alcohol gets u to sleep easier?

think less

sleep more

 

 

guess that theory is wrong

or maybe

my body cant absorb it fast enough

 

 

yet another wkend gone by

productive for training n tech muggin’ up till this coming friday

 

hope it really pays off

one less monkey off our backs

 

and then ftd/ffs sims in the coming weeks…

to stress even more

 

 

i need the rest

but my eyes keep opening at the wrong time of the day

 

Sunday

 

 

 

Monday…quickyly approaching once again

 

 

Time doesn’t stop for anyone

 

 

 

my strength and what’s keeping me sane for the past couple of weeks…

 

music..

awesome trance…

long drives..

 

sanity

 

thanks #abgt

 

 

 

 

 

 

has been a very mentally, and physically exhausting 7 weeks….

 

amazed, sadly, at how so many things can change in such a short span of time

the best part, everything seemed to have just hit all at once…..

guess that’s how life treats you when you least expect

 

can begin to feel the stress building up gradually reaching Tech/Type Perf exam…

and then more to come within the next 3 months…hard to digest

 

so many SOPs and stuff to memorize….systems also

piper warrior, cessna, baron, 738NG, A320 now…….

 

its really, really damn stressful

 

 

sometimes, sitting alone at stc, in the cbt room late at night studying…i think of stuff….

 

lots

 

the ifs, the woulds, the maybe’s…..

 

but sometimes i’m just too tired to think so much anymore

 

haven’t been this alone since…..oh, since….yeah…..since then…..

 

maybe fated?

even some friends, good ones, slowly started to fade off…..

some still stick…grateful they’re still there….

 

have been clear of fb, twitter, instagram, 4sq….since she left…

and strangely enough, i feel quite relived i’m no longer on those social media stuff anymore…deleted the apps and pages entirely…leaving only this blog as my source of ranting!

the first few days was hard, like not being able to check-in or update tweets or posts….

but the cold turkey subsided, and till today, after chucking all those apps away from my i5…i don’t feel attached to those apps anymore….

 

had to put a stop somewhere, sometime right?

anyways, got more impt things to bother about than anything else…

 

days past by quite fast these couple of many weeks….

didn’t realise that its xmas and new yr soon….

 

mood isn’t there…

 

heart’s broken badly…

 

time to stop feeling sorry about everything and well, just get on with life….

 

 

 

 

i miss the skies….up there…..above the clouds….way above all the crap that’s below….

 

 

shot this on the way back from Balikpapan-SIN……i turned to my right, and there it was……

held back the tears…..would have been embarassing in front of capt & fo….

 

pisces r usually at peace near water…or for my case, high up there……

 

 

 

i need a drink…..heading out chillax……

 

 

lets hope 2013 is a better year for everyone

 

nitez

- international departures - 

 

 

 

 

 

and so yet another crappy year ends…

 

ushering in 2013…

 

 

 

 

just another day gone by…

 

 

 

 

imy dd….

 

 

 

 

 

i reckon u dun even remember me….us…..anymore…..

 

 

nitez

 

 

 

sigh…

 

 

i knew i wasn’t perfect…

 

but i tried my best

 

 

truly i did…

 

 

 

imy