December 14, 2012
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has been a very mentally, and physically exhausting 7 weeks….
amazed, sadly, at how so many things can change in such a short span of time
the best part, everything seemed to have just hit all at once…..
guess that’s how life treats you when you least expect
can begin to feel the stress building up gradually reaching Tech/Type Perf exam…
and then more to come within the next 3 months…hard to digest
so many SOPs and stuff to memorize….systems also
piper warrior, cessna, baron, 738NG, A320 now…….
its really, really damn stressful
sometimes, sitting alone at stc, in the cbt room late at night studying…i think of stuff….
lots
the ifs, the woulds, the maybe’s…..
but sometimes i’m just too tired to think so much anymore
haven’t been this alone since…..oh, since….yeah…..since then…..
maybe fated?
even some friends, good ones, slowly started to fade off…..
some still stick…grateful they’re still there….
have been clear of fb, twitter, instagram, 4sq….since she left…
and strangely enough, i feel quite relived i’m no longer on those social media stuff anymore…deleted the apps and pages entirely…leaving only this blog as my source of ranting!
the first few days was hard, like not being able to check-in or update tweets or posts….
but the cold turkey subsided, and till today, after chucking all those apps away from my i5…i don’t feel attached to those apps anymore….
had to put a stop somewhere, sometime right?
anyways, got more impt things to bother about than anything else…
days past by quite fast these couple of many weeks….
didn’t realise that its xmas and new yr soon….
mood isn’t there…
heart’s broken badly…
time to stop feeling sorry about everything and well, just get on with life….
i miss the skies….up there…..above the clouds….way above all the crap that’s below….
shot this on the way back from Balikpapan-SIN……i turned to my right, and there it was……
held back the tears…..would have been embarassing in front of capt & fo….
pisces r usually at peace near water…or for my case, high up there……
i need a drink…..heading out chillax……
lets hope 2013 is a better year for everyone
nitez
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